by Kiara Jade » Fri Jun 05, 2009 1:08 pm
Ow ow Cole!
Hell Jade whats got you wound up so damn tight? Some of these knots are huge.
Kiara and Cole were sitting on the wall, she was between his legs, he was kneading out the tension in her shoulders. She would have asked Losa but hell she didnt even ask Cole he just saw her straddle the wall and decided to join her.
Have you not noticed what its been like here all week? Or for the last six months or so for that matter. It hasnt exactly been peaceful or even remotely calm... ow dammit!
Stop whining. How could anyone not notice, we've all been living it. But look over there at your husband and your son Jade. Look around your world, everything is coming together again and everything is being made right. Ari and Con are finally married, Bug whether she knows it or not has found her life...
Kiara put a hand on his amazed at how small her hand was on top of his.
And what about you Cole? Are you happy? I worry about you so much, I know what losing Alec did to you. That light in your eyes is gone, I'd give anything to see that back again Cole. When I told Losa you were the only family I had left, that was truth. I know my family consists of more and that my husband and children are my family but you are the only one left of the Connors Cole. The only one left that my parents called son. I miss them all so much Cole some days its hard to get out of bed, I wouldnt know what to do if I lost you too.
Cole kissed her hand.
I'm not going anywhere Kiara Jade, its just not my time. I miss them too Jade, our little family was ripped apart, destroyed but look at the family we have now. You dont need to worry about me Kiara, I know you wont believe me, but I am happy. I have brothers, they cannot replace the ones before them no one ever could, but I am not alone, and neither are you. And no matter what we will always have each other. I love you Jade.
I know Cole, I love you too.
The memory hit her hard and unexpectedly. There she was sitting talking trying to make sense of everything, trying not to lose what little precious control she had on her emotions and the memory of her and Cole spending some time alone talking slammed into her so hard she nearly fell from Losas lap. If she had know then just how short his time was she would have locked him away somewhere, anywhere. He was the last of the Connors in a sense, the last of the her close knit perfectly imperfect family, he promised her no matter what they would always have each other and he lied to her face. Swallowing the hard lump in her throat she forced herself not to fly into hysterics. The last thing she needed or Losa needed was for her to lose it, there would be no Cole to rail against, to come in and calm her down or to talk to Losa when she said something stupid that would hurt him.
We're stronger than we were before, I'm stronger than I was before. We'll be lucky if we ever see Oriana again. Kain can only be pushed so far and you have to understand Mara damn near raised him, she found him when he was just a kid and took him under her wing, he had always been her little one, and not only are she and Griffon gone but Oriana was nearly destroyed. Ori is everything to Kain there is no way he's letting her out of his sight for a long long time and because he is everything to her she is going to do exactly what he says, which she should. She never should have been here in the first place. When everything started going wrong, when she started changing we should have made her go home and stay there. She blames herself for what happened to Cole. Dammit Losa the first thing she said to me was she was sorry she couldn't keep him safe. Who the hell says something like that when they just watched a demon kill their parents? Theres still so much that needs to be done. Has anyone even thought to check on Ari or Jacob or are we all too damn wrapped up in demons to stop and think about anyone else but ourselves? Do you know how it feels to lose people that I have known almost the whole of my life? It feels no different than it did when I lost my father, my brothers, when I thought we lost Rayne. The only thing I have felt that has been worse than this is when I lost Shade, when I thought I really had you killed and when Kristian died. But this isn't going to break me, it can't, if it does then I have learned nothing from losing everyone before Cole. Don't misunderstand, I do hurt like hell but I cannot break, I am angry as hell but I have to try and keep it under control it's what Cole would expect from me, what they all would expect from me. I'm better than what I let myself become when I give in so giving in is not an option.
... Awaken you with a little evil inside ...