by Ellysia » Mon Dec 28, 2009 3:28 am
I fell into the habit that so many in Pallia seem to have. This realm, these lands are the strangest lands that I have ever stepped foot on, and the longer I stayed the more attached I was becoming, which made me wonder deep down if that was the healers plan. Get me to fall in love with the lands so I wouldn't leave? Maybe. So this habit that I developed was simple enough. Each night when I put my head to the pillow Mathias the healer was right next to me. We spent our nights talking, fighting, and I admit in the beginning stages of my recovery when my nerves were starting to heal there was a lot of crying and a hell of alot of cussing, but we both survived and kept up with our little ritual even when it no longer became necessary that he watch over me. I learned plenty about the healer during the time we spent together, it wasn't quite that easy getting either one of us to open up to one another at first but once we both started letting the other in, talking came naturally. I heard the story of his wife Jessica who sounded to me like the perfect woman for Mathias, she wasn't strong like me, not in the sense that she ran her mouth or had the kind of attitude that someone like me has, but she had her own strength, a quiet strength that from what I could see through Mathias stories, he and his children thrived off of. That was a good thing and it made me sad for him that he lost such a great love. It also made me laugh hearing how Losa had narrowly escaped being forced into marrying her, his salvation was the red headed assassin who would one day be Queen, which in turn made him King. Funny how the world works isn't it? Losa and Kiara running off the way they did left Mathias free to marry his Jessica and in return Losa had a Spitfire to call his own. So there we were getting settled in for the night, there wasn't even a thought that maybe Mathias should start sleeping in his own bed when I got into bed and he slipped in next to me. We never went right to sleep, we always talked some first, and contrary to what he says, he's never bored me to sleep, I'm just able to relax enough to fall asleep when he talks, you would too if you heard the timber of his voice. I was sitting up with my knees drawn to my chest and my chin resting on my knees thinking the most absurd thing. If I had my hair back it would be falling all over, but I was stuck with the peach fuzz for now.
I'm sure they'll be here, Sarabella would never leave Nala to celebrate without her, especially not with it being their first real holiday without Peter. Damn glad to hear Franklin is gone, can't lie about that, I always hated that snake, you have no idea just how much and if say that Sara and Jackson were in Iallia at the time then I don't have to worry about backlash falling on either of them. You're surprised that there are upper class people in the world that don't run around with their noses in the air? Sarabella is as high society as one can get but she has always been more comfortable in the common world, she's always done what's been expected of her and she'll always do what she can for those less fortunate than her no matter what her station in life is. That's just Sarabella and Nala has always enthralled anyone she's ever come in contact with so it's no surprise that she has so many here eating out of the palm of her hand.
Yawning I sank back against the pillows and stretched my legs out.
You should try and get some sleep healer, I don't know why I'm so restless tonight...
Yes I did, but it was my own matter to deal with, it wasn't fair to Mathias for me to let my mood affect his sleep, I knew what was wrong, I wanted to go to Hallia just so I could lay the stargazer lily on his grave like I have done every year since his death, but for me to show my face in Hallia while Kayne was still gaining control of the realm and cleaning up the mess, would not have been smart. I be able to get back there one day, this was just not going to be that day, and I was going to have to be all right with that, wasn't it time I started letting go a little more anyway?